UGH!!!

You know you'd think that all the times that I've forgotten birthdays, that yet another year wouldn't make a difference. Yeah guess what, I guess I have forgotten one to many and now there are hurt feelings involved. I remembered it the day of. Lost track of time like I always do and forgot to call. Now, in all honestly this individual never calls me on my birthday either, but they always send a card. So I'll put a card in the mail, and call in a few days to apologize as stupid as I think it is. I don't ever think that anyones feelings are stupid, but really I forget just about every year. What has made this be the year their are hurt feelings involved. Must be the position of the moon or some sort of bad omen winter solstice or something causing people to be super sensitive. I will bow to societal conventions completely against my will, I'll send a belated birthday card and apologize. 


It doesn't help that I know this isn't going to be the last time I forget a birthday, or that I forget to do something that means something to someone else. I really do have a terrible memory, and once I remember once it is likely that I won't remember twice (in one day that is). To actually pick up the phone and call, I hardly remember to call my immediate family when there is a birthday. I usually post on their facebook wall, but rarely do I call. 


I'm not going to lie. I feel a little bad, but I know it's more of a big deal to her then it is to me. I just wish I could understand why. I guess it's just one of those things that I'll probably never quite understand why.


Have I mentioned lately I'm ready for the holidays to be over. I'm ready to be done shopping, wrapping and trying to make sure that everyone gets bought for. I'm not feeling the holidays this year. I'm totally excited to be able to spend it with my family this year, but I wish someone else would do the rest of the Christmas prep for me cause I have shopping block. I can't think of what else to buy people. To put it bluntly, I'm out of ideas. I'm hoping next year I can talk the hubby in to splitting the buying responsibilities. Although, I'm not going to hold my breath.