Another Crazy Day! (Vent)

Some days headphones aren't enough to block out the chaos that goes on in this house when all the kids are home. Today for them was a free day off due to Hurricane Sandy that didn't even really hit our are in a way that would warrant school being closed. I want to smash their heads together when all they do all day is argue. I haven't felt good from the start today so that hasn't helped my mood any. There are days when the constant cycle of dishes, laundry and picking up everyone else's shit wears on me. To put it bluntly, I get sick of it. I've been doing it just about every day since I had my first child and I'm telling you what 12 years of the same shit different day really gets old. What can you do though, keep on keeping on, and make the best of it. I've been trying to get out some. I go to the gym 3 days a week (not this week due to weather and feeling awful), and I work at the gym once a week. That helps some. 

I get tired of listening to the constant whining. My least favorite whine currently is that there is nothing to eat. Seriously? these are some of the laziest kids ever! Warming up leftovers is too hard, and making their own sandwich might as well be asking them to make dinner for the whole family. So I've been cooking, and really finding something to make sometimes is a challenge, but it is absolutely doable. The problem I'm convinced is the lack of "easy" foods, the ones you can just put in the microwave and eat. They are expensive so we are buying things that require some prep before it can be consumed. The kids will either learn to fix something or lose a little weight cause they go without sometimes, because I don't always have time to cook. 

Baby is sick right now. Kaylee sick requires a whole different set of patience skills that some days I don't have. Today was alright, but I don't make any promises for tomorrow. 

I've done the dishes AGAIN, cleaned the kitchen AGAIN and made sure everyone has had a good meal. I try and cook at least once a day, but most days it's twice unless there is a ton of leftovers. I hate wasting food. I can't see the point of making something else when there is a fridge full of stuff to eat. It always seems that even though there is food it's all food that no one feels like eating. I long for simpler times, though I know they are years away I know they are in my future, making a meal for only 4 instead of six, 1 or 2 dogs instead of 3, will be easier. 

One day I hope everyone realizes how much I did for them when they were growing up. I guess if they don't, they don't, but some acknowledgment would be nice every once and awhile. Back to school for them tomorrow, and back to the gym for me. Hopefully it will help me break out of this funk I seem to be in. 

Vegan

When people change that don't normally change their whole lives. They don't normally change their entire diet and way of thinking overnight, but that's just what I did. Ten months ago I went from eating anything and everything, having mouth sores all the time, and feeling tired and exhausting all the time, to feeling the best I have ever felt. Going vegan for most people is a transition that takes time, but I wasn't willing to give myself that transition period. I needed to see change, and I needed it fast. At first I fell into the pre-made processed vegan foods because they were most like the foods I had eaten before and of course at the beginning there were things that I missed. I don't find now that I miss as much. I will occasionally have a craving for something non-vegan but I tell myself it's not worth it, because for me it's not. I'm happier without the mouth sores (it's easier to eat too) and I love having the energy and motivation to get out and workout three times a week. I love the changes I feel in my emotional and mental confidence and the changes that I have recently seen in my body from all the exercise I've been doing.

I've tried to help people understand that I don't care what they eat. That I eat what I eat because for me it's personal choice. 

I'm so tired of the ignorant comments from people that just don't understand. No one cares what you eat till you start eating stuff that's good for you. Then everyone becomes an expert and knows everything about nutrition and what you should and shouldn't eat. 

Also, completely unrelated, I will never have another puppy in my house again. This last one is an asshole and and giant waste of fur.