This is something that I've never really talked about. Mostly because I know I'm not the only one that has had this happen to them. I have a wonderful Mom, she's made her mistakes, but she's awesome (not perfect, but still awesome). After she divorced my dead beat sperm donor, she married a great man. Whom I now call my Dad, and have for years.
I have to wonder why my "sperm donor" didn't think I was worth his time. I know sometimes kids are not planned, but you don't have to make that the kids fault. I honestly think that I turned out better because he stayed out of my life. Shhhh don't tell anyone, but I think he's a loser. I've been back stateside since December 2009, and he has made no attempt to talk to me, contact me or even to see his grandkids. He's even got one that he's never met. I'm not sure, but that might say a whole lot about the type of person he is. From what I'm told he's got a girlfriend now. I hope she makes him happy. Part of me wonders if she even knows he's got a kid (grown or not) that he never sees. Most women don't find the dead beat dad quality attractive.
I wonder if he ever thinks about the family he is missing out on. The grandkids at christmas's, birthdays and other holidays. It just goes to show that some people really shouldn't have kids, or grandkids or anything that gives life meaning. Some people just take it all for granted.
Although this topic will always cause me a little sadness. For the kids, and some for myself, because I do have some cool memories of him. Just wish I guess, that I mattered to him.
Maybe when he gets old and I'm his only living relative I'll matter then. Though I doubt it.
His loss.
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